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All profits from the first week of sales for this song are being donated to Suicide Prevention Australia. Please consider paying for this song, even though we've put it up for free.

We recently lost one of our best friends to suicide.

This song is for everyone left behind and for anyone considering ending their own life. You are IMPORTANT. Those that are left behind suffer more than you will ever imagine. There's a ripple effect that spreads beyond just sadness.

This song was a way for us to deal with our anger and our grief at the sudden loss of such a wonderful human being, and is dedicated to her memory.

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I feel empty, I feel fuckin numb.
Oh my God what the fuck have you done?
I was feeling like my life had just begun.
You fucked it all up, happiness was undone.
I was going along great. I was just fine.
Silenced the demons, clouding my mind.
Happiness is so hard, so hard to find.
Pain and suffering all you left behind.
When you went away, you took a piece of me with you.
I don't know if I can ever forgive you.
Tell me what the fuck, what the fuck hit you?
I love you. I hate you. Goddammit, I miss you.
I sit back and try and get a grip.
On the edge of hell, I think I'm gonna slip.
You packed your bags for a one-way trip.
How dare you leave me here feeling like shit?
Why?
I try to act like this never happened
Why would you do this? I thought that I mattered.
My heart is in pieces. Torn and tattered.
Everyone you know is completely shattered.
You should've reached out and asked for help.
All I've got left is a picture on the shelf.
You could've waited 5 minutes and asked yourself,
"What's this gonna mean for everyone else?"
You didn't even fuckin say goodbye.
All I do is sit alone in my room and fuckin cry.
I keep wondering why
We could've worked this out you didn't have to lie.
Are you happy now? Did you find peace?
The rest of us a left here drowning in our grief.
And I'm feeling so weak.
We could've helped, all you had to do was speak.
Why?
Gotta let you go.

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released August 25, 2023

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